Contents
Introduction
Part I: What?s Been Lost?
1. Remembering Eden
Prayer Practice: Childhood Reflections
2. Longing for Home
Prayer Practice: Images of Home
3. Love and Disillusionment
Prayer Practice: Opening Clinched Fists
4. Losing my Strength
Prayer Practice: Take a Bath
5. Longing for a Child
Prayer Practice: Good Friday, Holy Saturday, Easter Sunday
6. Losing My Brother
Prayer Practice: Breath Prayer
7. Losing my Religion
Prayer Practice: Writing a Lament
8. Falling into Depression
Prayer Practice: Prayer Postures
Part II: Listening to our Losses
9. Minimizing our Wounds
Prayer Practice: Holding the Tension
10. Acknowledging Our Losses
Prayer Practice: Imaginative Prayer
11. Overcoming Obstacles to Grieving
Prayer Practice: The Prayer of the Tantruming Child
12. Revealing Our Perspectives
Prayer Practice: Prayer of Examen
13. Fear of Falling
Prayer Practice: The Stations of the Cross
14. Grieve as We Can, Not as We Can't
Prayer Practice: Evening Prayer with Jimma
15. Listening to the Shepherd
Prayer Practice: Discerning the Voices
Part III: Inviting Hope
16. Discoveries in the Dark
Prayer Practice: Centering Prayer
17. Letting the Light in Through Nature and Beauty
Prayer Practice: Nature Walk
18.Cathartic Creativity
Prayer Practice: Make or Break Something
19. Feeding Jesus Doughnuts
Prayer Practice: Praying with the Least of These
20. Sacred Symbols
Prayer Practice: Create a Space of Remembrance
21. Ritual and Healing
Prayer Practice: Healing Rituals
22. Getting Up Again
Prayer Practice: Shaking
23. Letting Go
Prayer Practice: The Parting
24. Traveling Companions
Prayer Practice: Intentional Conversations
25. Learning to Float
Prayer Practice: Doing What We Love
26. Coming Home to Our Broken Hallelujahs
Acknowledgments
Notes
About the Author
Beth Slevcove is a spiritual director, retreat leader, surfer and mother. She served as the director of spiritual formation for Youth Specialties for seven years and holds advanced degrees in theology and education. Beth is deeply rooted in her urban Lutheran congregation and is an oblate at a Benedictine monastery. She lives in San Diego with her husband and two young children.
"The beautifully fashioned sentences throughout Broken Hallelujahs
summon deep contemplation and provoke a wrestling with the
realities of our mysterious lives. What is truly refreshing about
Broken Hallelujahs is the absence of sentimentalism. With a timely
cadence, this book moved me to tears—tears of grief, loss and
lament, but also tears of joyfulness and gratitude. Beth's
willingness to be vulnerable and to call a thing what it is gave me
permission to sink into the profound truth that Jesus Christ shows
us it is truly human to sometimes cry out, 'My God, why have you
forsaken me?' Broken Hallelujahs ministered to my soul like a balm
of Gilead. I love this book and hope you will take care of your
soul by reading this astonishing story."
*Mike King, president and CEO, Youthfront, author of Presence
Centered Youth Ministry*
"This book provides a needed resource for anyone struggling to stay
connected with God in the midst of faith-shaking turmoil and loss.
Beth's courageous vulnerability encourages her readers to equal
honesty, while the spiritual practices that close each chapter
offer a means of experiencing God without denying the human
emotions that accompany loss. It is a book I will read and reread,
and one that I will share with others. For who has not experienced
the grief and loss that are part of every life?"
*Elizabeth L. Patterson, former associate dean, School of Theology,
Fuller Theological Seminary*
"I don't normally think of grief and beauty cozying up with one
another. But that's the indelible impression this gorgeous book
imprinted on my heart and mind. Slevcove—with sometimes startling
vulnerability and relentless authenticity—opens up her journey into
and through grief, shining a light on something far, far better
than simple platitudes or greeting card perk pills. This book
reveals truth. And it's the best kind of truth, messy and
heart-wrenching and full of the potency of new life."
*Mark Oestreicher, The Youth Cartel, author of Hopecasting*
"Those who find themselves in the dark and disorienting cavern of
loss will sense a true and faithful companion in Beth Allen
Slevcove. She has spent a great deal of time in the dark and has
not only survived but has learned to discern the subtle grays and
cracks of light to guide her forward. She has tended her grief well
and her life's journey has given her a deep 'heart of wisdom' that
some people gain but few articulate so poignantly."
*Jeff Johnson, musician*
"In Broken Hallelujahs, Beth Slevcove tells a brave, unsentimental
and surprisingly redemptive story. She explores the way grief can
both shatter and transform our hearts and offers spiritual
practices that help readers authentically express and grieve their
own wounds and disappointments. It's a beautiful, honest book."
*Jennifer Grant, author of Love You More and Wholehearted
Living*
"Broken Hallelujahs is a book to keep nearby when sorrow intrudes
and you need a friend to help. Beth Slevcove has walked the way of
grief and tells the stories of a traveling companion who knows the
way. Through her experience and expert reflective questions,
Slevcove nudges the reader to step out in faith, honor the loss and
trust that God is near the brokenhearted."
*Rebecca Laird, Point Loma Nazarene University, coauthor of
Spiritual Direction*
"This book is a wonderful collection of real life stories,
down-to-earth exercises and the needed encouragement to feel,
express and engage with grief in unedited and honest ways. Beth,
drawing from her own experiences, provides practical wisdom for
those journeying through their own grief and those who are invited
to companion with others through grief."
*Larry Warner, author of Journey with Jesus, founder of b
(b-ing.org)*
"Beth Slevcove has provided us with the quintessential primer on
learning how to 'grieve the big and small losses of life.' No one
would ask for any of these losses to come their way. Yet, in all
the losses that Beth has experienced, she has and continues to be
attentive to holding all before God, offering her own deep response
to the pain again, and again, and again. Throughout the book we are
provided with the privilege and opportunity to do the same. And you
know what? Over time, we may discover that the broken hallelujahs
in our own lives are the very things that take us deeper into the
unbroken hallelujah. O may it be so! Thank you, Beth."
*Maggie Robbins, spiritual director, coauthor of Enjoy the
Silence*
"All of us have experienced loss in some way, but too often we
don't take the time to grieve that loss, and most of us, myself
included, don't even know how to begin to process the loss so we
can move toward healing. Beth's new book Broken Hallelujahs is a
beautiful reflection on loss and love and finding God again after
God's silence. Through her stories and the exercises and practices
included at the end of each chapter, Beth gives us the tools we
need to process our grief and help us connect to God and actually
move on toward healing."
*Lilly Lewin, author of Sacred Space and founder of
ThinplaceNashville*
"In Broken Hallelujahs Beth Allen Slevcove gives us a beautifully
written, deeply personal account of her experience of loss—its pain
and its potential. As I read it, I began to see some of my own
experience of loss through the lens she provided. Reading her story
is a hopeful encounter, one I would wish for anyone struggling with
loss. And at some point, that will be all of us."
*John Hambrick, Buckhead Church, Atlanta, author of Move Toward the
Mess*
"Not just another good grief book but a helpful journey through
grief from happy hallelujahs to broken hallelujahs, and in the
midst of multiple losses, finally to the hopeful hallelujah of
faith and endurance."
*Michael J. Christensen, Wesley Center, Point Loma Nazarene
University*
"My Sunday School faith prepared me to approach life with an
expectation of happily ever after. But at some point it became
clear that life really is broken. If we are not prepared for
this—and few of us are—it can lead to disillusionment and loss of
faith. In this beautiful book, Beth Slevcove invites us to
accompany her on her own journey of loss and tragedy. I often cried
along as I recognized many elements in common with my own
experience. I was challenged by her determination to find God in
the midst of it without turning away from reality. In the end, her
ability to still say hallelujah through the tears and in the midst
of the mess is deeply inspiring. This is a charming, sometimes
poetic book with profound insights, and it is also a book that I
will return to again and again, since each chapter ends with prayer
practices and exercises for seeking and occasionally wrestling with
God."
*Scott Sabin, executive director, Plant With Purpose*
"Loss and grief, if confronted alone, can leave us feeling
abandoned and despairing. But when given the perspective of a wise,
experienced—and above all—tender guide, it can lead to wellspring
of a deeper life. Writing in prose that bends toward poetry, Beth
Slevcove is precisely such a guide. Using her own losses and her
own life to lead us to the truths that lie amidst our own life
fragments, Beth asks and attends to the hardest questions of life
and faith with candor, courage, vulnerability and a wit that will
make you sigh deeply and smile amidst your tears. This is a simply
splendid book."
*Tod Bolsinger, vice president for vocation and formation, Fuller
Theological Seminary, author of Canoeing the Mountains*
"Beth's personal story joined with her theological reflections
becomes a paradigm for those on the path of spiritual maturity.
This book is simply eloquent, profoundly wise, inspiring and
practical. It is a truly fresh perspective on the reality of
grieving our losses as we progress through our lives."
*Francis Benedict, O.S.B., a monk of St. Andrew's Abbey in
Valyermo, California*
"Beth Slevcove chronicles her story of disappointment and grief and
invites us to see the hidden beauty of the dark and lonely places
in our own lives. With the gentleness of a spiritual director, she
offers earthy and practical wisdom for navigating life's inevitable
difficulties. This book makes me hungry to discover paths through
pain and loss that are more honest, creative and
God-conscious."
*Mark Scandrette, author of Free and Practicing the Way of
Jesus*
"Beth is a singularly unique person. When you meet her, it's clear
there is no box to put her in— she's equal parts theologian,
mystic, surfer chick and earth mother. In Broken Hallelujahs, Beth
invites us along as she explores her personal losses and her
learnings about God in the process, offering spiritual practices
that can help us do the same."
*Elaine Martens Hamilton, marriage and family therapist, founder
and director, The Soul Care House*
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